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October 29, 2009

Filed under: Random — Bonnie @ 11:05 am

School is going well for James. He gets his 1st report card at the end of the week and I will be shocked to see anything under a B! His teacher is not new to the school, she just got married and her name changed. She is fantastic and I am glad James has matured so well. We still have moments at home and he still gets the occasional note for talking to much but there have been no melt downs.

We are having a problem with his idiot bus driver that is driving me crazy. I am doing everything I can to resolve the problem but it seems that no one cares to help. I finally called the corporate office in Illinois and filed a formal complaint against the driver and his superiors who have done nothing to diffuse the situation. James is not riding the bus and that drives me crazy. He has every right to ride that bus without being bullied by the driver but I just don’t feel like that will happen at this point. We contract our bus services so right now I am dealing with that company. I hate that it had to progress to calling a corporate office but I exhausted all my local leads. Now I am working on a documentation to bring to the superintendent’s attention. Even though this bus company is not run by Duval county, they are paying for a service and are also responsible for the safety of my child. It’s very stressful but I’m trying to deal with it calmly.

Christopher is still tiny as ever but he’s slowly starting to talk. He says a few more things but only randomly. He’ll never say anything if you ask him too.

I had my annual check-up, had some moles removed, found out my insurance went up,  it doesn’t cover ANY lab work until my deductible is met, and I am slowly going insane. I actually have to have some labs and tests done and it just sucks that for the whole time I had decent insurance I was fine. I am still fine but just have a few things to look into. Things that are going to cost me money I don’t want to spend since I pay a small fortune for medical insurance.

I just read that our pediatrician has the H1N1 vaccine for James age group and I am debating it. It’s a no win situation. I can get the vaccine and he gets sick from it or I don’t and he gets the flu and could die. Or he gets the vaccine and he’s fine or he doesn’t get the vaccine and is fine. I am conflicted. We have had more than a few s-flu related deaths and that makes me nervous. They do not have the injectable available so Christopher won’t be getting it yet either way.

Soooo. There’s a lot of tension and stress and I really am going crazy. I am trying not to let it get out of hand and my only solution is to go to bed early. That doesn’t stop me from waking up at 2am over it but it’s all I can do right now.

 

May? Really? August 19, 2009

Filed under: Random — Bonnie @ 2:07 pm

I miss this. So let’s get up to speed.
Facebook and Shutterfly are great but sometimes it’s nice to just blab away without your aunt, cousins, and high school friends reading about it. I hide behind this blog knowing I only have about 4 readers and you guys have been around forever and I love you like you lived next door to me 🙂 So anyway here’s the scoop on us.

Happy anniversary to me and James today. It’s been a bad morning. Christopher has been very fussy since last night and without some type of medication, I have a hard time dealing with it. I get even more upset when J is home and can’t even give me a break. It’s no wonder that I have meltdowns and lock myself in the bathroom with the exhaust fan on. He had to go visit his cousin in the hospital so I took the boys to target. I had an iced coffee, they had popcorn and my mood was improving. I decided to browse the vitamin aisle and see what they had for irritability. I couldn’t find anything so I called my sister, the know it all (and that’s a compliment!!!) She said that Fish oil in high doses can be as effective as a mild anti depressant but that I shouldn’t buy the cheap bottle because of mercury. So I came home with Biotin for my hair, a multi and a b complex. That should be ok until I can research my fish oil and a coQ10, which I have no idea what it is but she told me to take it. I love my sister. She knows just what I need to prevent me from crawling under a rock or punching someone.

I am going insane with all the talk of DS games and Pokemon cards. I wish my sister lived here so her boys and James could visit each other and talk about these things. At least the twins have each other, poor James just has me and my eyes glaze over and I want to stab my eye with a pen.

His birthday party here went over well. It was quiet and in the end Darlene was the only one who stayed. But at least the others brought James a gift. He saved up and has bought 2 new DS games and 2 huge packages of Pokemon cards. I think the ones he got are actually full game sets, instead of the little pack of trading cards we get sometimes.  We spent the weekend at Universal and the weather was great with just 2 random thunderstorms, both when we were sitting down to eat. Day 2 was terrible. My debit card and both our driver’s license  flew out of my pocket and James made us go home right then and I felt so bad for ruing l James’ birthday. He was sad but very nice to be about it and once we got home and unpacked I took him to the pool.

Oh shit Christopher is awake and doing the fake crying that sounds like a cough. Oh wait. He’s quiet now, maybe I’ll get another 15 minutes.

School oritentation is on Friday. James did not get the 1 male teacher and I am a bit sad about it. I was hoping he would but I guess I can’t say it would have been better for him, just wishful thinking that a man would change his behaviour. School starts on Monday and I can’t wait. It’s not that James has been driving me crazy it’s just nice to get him back into a learning routine. It’s hard for us to stick to anything over summer break, even when I make an effort.

I guess that’s about it.

 

May 27, 2009

Filed under: Random — Bonnie @ 9:23 am

Between facebook and my shutterfly site I hardly ever think to update here. Unless I am mad. lol.

Our three day weekend was long and boring. It rained on and off so we never got a chance to get out. Since we’d been cooped up all weekend I was going a little crazy. James had Sunday and Monday off but he wasn’t here, as usual.  I  was far past my limit with the kids whining on Sunday night and he was oblivious, as usual again! When I finally reached my boiling point and walked out the front door for a moment of quiet he was so concerned. I just wanted to punch him. He went to starbucks and got me a “calming” tea, which I wanted to toss in his face. I fed the kids and put them to bed because I can’t even get a break when I have a breakdown, drank my tea, and worked on a project for CJ. Eventually James put in a movie, 7 Pounds, which was ok but not as great as everyone said it was.  I took the boys to the UNF Nature Preserve on Monday, when we finally got a few minutes of sunshine.  It’s my favorite place to go because I can let the boys run and play and not worry about dog poop (thanks neighbor) or cars. It was humid and buggy so we stayed off the trails. We looked for the alligator but couldn’t find him so we watched the turtles instead.

It’s been raining for a week and the forecast looks like the rest of this week too. AWFUL. We’ve been having dry mornings which is much better than last week’s all day downpours.

We have 7 school days left.  James’ conduct grade dropped back to a C. He has had a really hard time this 9 weeks but two B’s are better than none! Their awards ceremony is Friday and I am looking forward to it. I had a conference with his gifted teacher and he is doing well. I asked her about is talking problem and she said he talks no more than any of the other’s and that he’s a 2nd grade boy, that’s what they do. I LOVE her! 😉 So he is chatty but it’s not a problem for her.  She said I should expect a lot of maturing in 3rd grade, I sure hope so.

We have 21 days until we leave for Ohio. I am doing my practice packing.  I have to pay baggage fees with Northwest now, damn delta merger. It’s only $15 per bag and even if I check two bags I’ll still have paid less than if I bought tickets on Southwest. For the first time ever I am using my carry-ons for luggage, in hopes of cramming enough into them that I will only have to check one bag. I also have to bring the car seat and the stroller and I hope that I don’t have to pay extra for one of them. I have two full fare tickets so I should be able to gate check one on each. Hopefully. James and I decided to stay in a hotel for the week we are there together. My mom’s house is very small and we would only have one bedroom for the four of us and one bathroom for all.  My sister and her 3 boys are usually there during the summer too since she works closer to my parents house than hers. Add her husband and my other sister on the weekends plus the dogs and the 2 bedroom/1 bathroom house becomes a zoo. We have a lot of stuff planned and I can’t wait!

 

April 29, 2009

Filed under: Random — Bonnie @ 2:03 pm

I, at any moment, might bite someone’s head off. I knew I should have gotten the Premsyn instead of Midol. Midol does not treat irritability but had a $1 coupon on it. I am trying to stay away from L James because in addition to my being a crazed hormonal lunatic, he had a bad day at school. James just called me to check in and I couldn’t even be nice about that. I was beyond exasperated and all he asked was how our day is going. YIKES!

 

A random jumble

Filed under: Daily Boredom — Bonnie @ 7:35 am

After two months of having a missing period it finally came and with a vengeance. I would love to curl up in a ball and die but I can’t. I took two midol and am hoping that and some water will help.

I reached my 200 lbs goal. Just 60 to go!  I think I am going to have to actually exercise now. I HATE the thought but know that it is necessary for healthy weight loss.
I opened an email from Dooney & Burke and they have the cutest new bags for spring. I thought about asking for one for my birthday/mother’s day gift. Since they fall within a week of each other I always get one gift. I don’t mind because it’s usually a nice one. This year I can’t think of a thing I need or want, besides the purse, and I think the excitement of birthdays has officially left me. James is trying to plan something nice and fantastic and I am just blahhhh. Hey wait, I know…. I need a book about proper punctuation. I know I could find it on the web but I like things in book form. I am always misusing commas and apostrophes!

James had his graduation on Friday. I posted it on the shutterfly site. We were all in awe when he broke his wood boards. The look on his face after he broke the first one was priceless. I wish I would have gotten a still shot of it. I only took video and didn’t bring my 35 mm, I should have. Another mom took some awesome pictures of James and now I am going to stalk her until she emails them to me. 🙂 He has black belt testing in July. This graduation was to get his recommended black belt. The big test in July will be for his 1st degree and it’s serious business. Normally you would have 4-6 months between earning R and 1st, James has 3. His instructor is confidant that James will be ready even with vacation. I am not so sure and am thinking I may just wait until the next testing. James has decided that he wants to continue with Karate. I gave him the choice and explained that we can only afford one full time activity. We have no problem doing the seasonal stuff because it’s only around $100 per season, spring and fall. He loves football but still hasn’t gotten the hang of it yet. He goes out there, tries, and has fun. That’s all that matters.

This is the last 9 weeks of school. I will never be able to say this enough but time flies!!!! We have his portfolio celebration, art show, book fair, and gifted conference along with two field trips. May will be a busy month!

I am going shopping to pick up some small gifts for the teachers. It’s professional appreciation week and the room reps have requested small things each day. I don’t mind but if I were the teachers I would rather have a small gift card, so I am a bit grumbly about it. Even still I have done what was suggested for each day.  I am also going to try to find something that I want for my birthday gift. James has been hounding me and just can’t believe that there is nothing I want. I don’t know why, since he never wants anything either. The difference is I will take him for his word and not buy anything fancy. He’ll go out on his own and come home with a bunch of stuff that I really don’t want, though the thought was nice.

 

April 22, 2009

Filed under: Random — Bonnie @ 12:53 pm

I have no self control when it comes to food. I will eat the whole birthday cake, the dozen cupcakes, the package of cookies. But it’s not just junk food. I knew this before I joined WW and I made an attempt to eat better. What I didn’t realize is that no matter how healthy you think you are eating it doesn’t matter if you are eating 3-4 portions of something. I have put off doing WW for a very long time because I didn’t think that I could do it. I didn’t think it would work. I started off with 28 points daily points and 35 weekly splurge points. I made an effort to not go over my daily points at all, for any reason. I knew that if I did, so early on, that I would just be back at square one. I drank ridiculous ammounts of water and I ate the WW Smart Ones frozen meals. It was a lot easier to pop one in the microwave than to sit and figure how many points my lunch was going to be. Now that I have been doing it for a few weeks I have stopped eating the frozen meals. But I still am trying to stick to the daily points and stay the heck away from my splurge points. I have found that it’s all in the planning, and eating 1 of something instead of 4. I know the points of everything I regularly eat and I went through and looked up every fast food item I ate, that way I knew what I was getting myself into when I was so starving that I would drive through somewhere. I made myself aware of every possible food I put into my mouth. I weeded out the bad ones, like Firehouse subs, where my favorite is 16 points WITHOUT mayo and cheese, and found alternatives, like the grilled chicken sandwich from Chik Fil-a that is 5 points.  Every day is a battle because I don’t want to do this. I would be so happy just to shovel in whatever I felt like. But when my biggest jeans didn’t fit anymore something in my brain clicked. I didn’t want to be fat. I wasn’t used to be being fat. Except that that’s what I have been for the last 8 years. I am going to be 28 in 2 weeks. For the last 8 years I have said that I didn’t want to spend my 20’s being fat. I have two years to go. It’s a promise to myself, even if I don’t like it. I will struggle everyday and it’s never going to be easy. I won’t ever not be able to be disciplined, but I think it’s worth it. I do not want to be a size zero but I also don’t want to be a 20.

 

April 21, 2009

Filed under: Random — Bonnie @ 7:31 am

I just sent James’ gifted teacher an email and accidentally put an apostophe where I shouldn’t have. I feel dumb 😉

Christopher had his 15 month checkup yesterday, which went well, and then I hung out with Darlene. Because I was going to the Doctor I wore my fancy clothes and now my feet are killing me. The good but bad news is that my good jeans are now too big. The bad part about that is I just bought them a month ago! It’s nice to notice the weight loss but now I have to buy new “good” jeans! I only lost another two pounds this week. Still good, fantastic in fact, but I was liking the 5 pound weeks better!!! At this rate I should be at my goal by December. It seems like a long way off but it’s not really!